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You guys, phase 2 was already over a month ago. I am convinced that the past month went by faster than any other month in the history of months. Am I alone? How are we over 1/2 way done with January already? I have so many questions for you this morning. Did you make a resolution this year? Or have you set a word of intention for 2019? Financial goals? Physical goals?

I did set a word for 2019. I set some goals, some financial-ish and some physical-ish. I’m not cleared to exercise yet, but I’m walking. And trying to eat intentionally. To fuel my body for the work I need it to do.

As far as healing goes, this phase has been over a lot faster. I’m not sure why that is. My abdomen was a lot more tender this time. It seriously felt like I’d done a bunch of pure barre classes back to back to back. It lasted quite a while, laughing sucked, coughing and sneezing too. It’s still not SUPER fun to sneeze or cough but it’s not quite the same jarring pain that was before. I barely bruised this time which surprised me. Of course there was SOME but I expected with liposuction and fat grafting for there to be more bruising. I slept in my bed from day 1. Slightly inclined of course but no need for a recliner or any special accommodations.

As far as the financial aspects of my goals for 2019, I’m trying to manifest $100,000. I have heard this saying before, and while I’m not entirely sure of the process, it can’t hurt. I am also trying very hard to be mindful of any and all purchases. I’m avoiding Target for January and maybe February as well. Maybe forever? I mean, we went there for some cortisone cream and they’re the only place that I knew of that sold the brand of tampons I love. I think total for the month of January we are at less than $50 at Target. That’s a win! Now that I found my tampons on amazon it’ll be even less.

I am trying to repurpose things in my home to make them both functional and beautiful. I’ve been doing a massive purge. Seriously. If you don’t follow my instagram you should, I’ve highlighted them as “The Purge”. Pretty entertaining stuff. I think I’m pretty close to the 2019 things gone for this year and it’s just barely 2 weeks in. I’m trying to buy used when I can. You know, recycle in its most basic form. I’m going to share pictures on another day of the transformations some rooms have had since the purge. It’s been cathartic AF and I am so grateful to my body for being able to do this. Kitchen, desk/office, coat closet, game cabinet, tv stand, linen closet, emilia’s room, bunk room are all clean and purged. I have left my room, bathroom and closet plus the laundry room. I’ve purged for a bunch of days straight so today I’m spending it watching trashy tv or reading my favorite pink books (romance novels!) or just doing nothing. My body needs a break. My brain needs a break.

Where are you at with your 2019 goals? Did you make them? Leave me a comment sharing your current status.

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3000 Questions About Me

My sweet friend, Donna, sent me a care package before phase 2. Inside was a tiny plush Hermione doll and this awesome book.

Inside, as one would suspect, are 3000 Questions About Me. Don’t worry, I’m not answering all of them right here, right now. Nor will I be posting a question a day with a detailed answer.

I am, however,answering the first question.

1. What is your idea of perfect happiness?

Perfect happiness is simple and found in the smallest details. A cuddle with the pups. Emilia’s tiny hand slipping into mine as we cross a street. Owen’s fluffy curls bouncing on the trampoline while he laughs. Gabriel excitedly telling me about something I know nothing about and Julian’s reaction when I tickle him. (You do know he’s too cool for me, right?) Watching a movie with the love of my life. (PS we watched Bird Box on NYE and I’m thinking about cutting my hair like Malorie’s in the beginning?)

Life isn’t perfect. Nothing is. That doesn’t mean it isn’t something to be cherished and celebrated.

So, tell me friends, what is your idea of perfect happiness?

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Every year I pick a word to focus on. In 2018 my word was previve & thrive. When you have a brca mutation and you make the decision to have a prophylactic mastectomy it’s called previving. I’ve been struggling with 2019 and the word for the year. Tonight as I was driving home from work, I thought of a word that just might work: gratify.

I have spent the last year undergoing two surgeries, one injury that required seven stitches, an infection and hurricane Michael. It’s been a year full of healing and also patience. I’ve had to give myself grace, and learn to be quiet. I am so excited for what 2019 has in store for us. The adventures we have planned. I’m grateful for my sweet babies and plan to be grateful for every moment of mobility.

Do you think of a word? If so what is your 2019 word?